D-Mattttt(Matters) Account

At last I was dead on that auspicious day without my knowledge. The day has come when I can see the difference between me and my body (for this people should die at least once in their life time). Infact here body means dead body not just body and my body (or the dead body) was completely tied with heavy cloths (it was a kind of gunny bag) and almost all open places are closed by using some weird things . Well….two cotton stuffs are dancing in my senseless nose and my head is tied completely so that my mouth should not open by mistake also (Most of them are tried for years to shut my mouth but they are unsuccessful till this moment).Four people…yes…four people…are around me and all of them are wearing thorn shorts(I don’t know why???) and they were having chains on their soldiers (might be to beat me…but not sure!!!!). They are shouting something and taking that body. After travelling for long time(by walk) they came to some beach. Yes they came to near the sea and they threw me into sea . They should have gone for any other option of clearing the body but they preferred sea. I started to flow(or sink???) slowly inside the sea and even though I can feel all these things but didn’t have control about my body as it was already dead.
When I was slowly going deep into the sea all my old memories start to flow in my mind. The day I struggled to study, the day when I was beaten by my shopkeeper for stealing 1 rupee, the day when I was beaten by the teacher for not scoring good marks, the day when I was slapped by a girl when I tried to kiss her, the day when I was joined the graduation, the day when I fell in love for no reason, the day when I got my first job, the day when she smiled on me, the day when she got married, the day when I missed my first train, the day when I fought for few bucks, the day when I forget my self in that artificial corporate world, the day when I got commited, the day when I fought with my wife for no reason, the day when I was thrown out of the company…….list goes on…….
Suddenly few fishes (started to kiss), snakes (willing to touch), different type of creatures are coming closer to me (sorry my body) and my body is flowing left side once and right side once depend on the flow of the sea water(like Bangalore rain) and in between these creatures of sea are making scratch to my dead body(which was so clean) but after seeing the body they use to move from the body as if they hate human body(or they just hate me????) like anything and I came to know about the value of dead body of a human being but it was too late as I already dead and I don’t have second chance.
Suddenly I started to feel very odd in that place but I don’t have control about my dead body. I and my body are separate after so many years(ya so many years…….) . I reached very deep of the sea where there are only horrible thorns and sharp and hard creatures and because of the force of the sea water my head stuck into those thorns and everything went inside my head and my body got struck. In the very deep of the sea my head is down and my legs are up towards the sky. And I felt like I am dying again.
I don’t know what to do……I don’t know why I am dead…..I don’t know who am I……I don’t know where I am….I don’t why this is happening with me…..or does it happening only with me….I don’t know how I can feel my body after the death….Do all dead bodies feel the same thing?....Do we have one more life?...Do they feel alone when they are dead?......Do the body still feels after life goes out of the body?....Why there is something called human beings? Are they very mechanical? Why they keep on hating each other when they are living? Why people trouble themselves and others even though the life is not permanent?
I felt these when my body was shrinking because of sea water and I was getting all the pain in this world but I didn’t have control over my own body. I want to say sorry to so many people for so many mistakes. I regretted so many decision of mine. I just want to say loudly ‘SORRY’to everyone for all my mistakes.
Slowly all the cotton which was tied my head are started to move away from the body and ropes are broken because of thorns and other creatures of sea. And body is now more free and more light and trying to move away from that place and start to flow in other direction with very high speed because of heavy flow inside the sea but my head was struck with deep thorn of the sea.
“Shit…shit…”
Heavy Slap sound…?????
I opened my own eyes and I was still alive with my own head but the color of the sea water has changed???
“Oh no……” I am inside the gutter and I think some people thrown me inside that….. May be the people are from that local bar and restaurant….then does it mean that I am drunk?......does it also mean that I was not agreed to pay the bill???......why I came alone to drink???..
Anyway the best thing is that I am still alive????? And still have bit control over the body.
My phone started to ring……and it was Monday morning 7AM and I am still inside the gutter?????????????? gutter??????????????